I did! lots of strange looks and even a few compliments. pictures coming soon.
I’m a bit upset she sent me that text, “Do you think we would be together if things were different?”. Different how? If she didn’t live in Maryland. If she wasn’t married. If I wasn’t still in school. If I wasn’t committed to someone else. It isn’t fair of her to make me rethink our entire relationship. To make me rethink if we never lost contact that her and I would be together. To stroke my ego and have her doubt her vows. It isn’t right that I have to call her “Bro” because her wife is jealous of me. It isn’t right that we no longer talk on the phone because she can’t think straight when she hears my voice. Our relationship is clouded with hypotheticals.
Everything seems so forced now. We talk about our lives and there is an air of dissatisfaction. She is always unhappy with her situation as if I made it law. Her advice on my love life is filled with resentment. Her discussions on the future are not as hopeful as they once were. She wants me but can’t have me.
I want her back. I want that person who eased my mind with stupid jokes. I want that person who talked me through my heartbreak. I want that person who listened to me through nights of passion. I want that person who understood my moments of reckless abandonment. I want my friend back.
If things were different… Things aren’t different.
All day?! TWO MONTHS!! This is cruel. I will try. Reveal yourself.
Yes, Lets do it.